Back to Disgusted...

At least once a year, if not twice, I reach the point where I just feel disgusted with my body. Well, the time has come again. The problem is, I'm not to the point where I have the motivation to do something about it. I tried committing myself to working out 3 times a week, but then I got sick and took off, so I'm out of sync again. I know I'm reaching for excuses, but I want to get my thyroid checked. I'm always tired and I truly think I experienced a bout of depression this winter. I'm also hesitant to actually go ask for blood work because then I find out for sure it's my diet and lack of exercise that has brought me back to this point. I have to find the motivation to do something soon, or I'll have to go buy new clothes. I used to use working out as an aid to my love of sweets and baking, but I just haven't made the time. I had time tonight, but my knee was truly sore and swollen. I took the easy way out and gardened instead. I can keep finding excuses, but I need to stop. I need to get rid of this sugar craving and be more aware if I'm eating emotionally. Regardless, I think I need to stop baking and pick up one of my other hobbies.